No. 21: Crying I
At Karolinska Hospital
they are testing something new
on the girl with the prune belly
to get the lazy bladder working.
Well, that's what they say.
Even though laziness
requires an expression of will
and that the bladder muscles
are controlled by the central nervous system
and are controlled automatically
without will,
without a choice to be
just lazy.
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| The "lazy" bladder must be trained on the potty too... |
Injections with Carbacholin,
are supposed to make the lazy bladder
contract.
They contract the whole girl.
and sweaty
and it hurts,
and the girl cries
and the mother;
who is visiting at that moment,
these very weeks
when the experiments are taking place;
can do nothing
but watch
and try
to comfort the girl
while she cries and is in pain.
And perhaps the girl,
the two-year-old girl,
wonders
why the mother doesn't intervene,
why the mother doesn't stop,
doesn't stop these doctors
in virgin white coats
from injecting Carbacholin
into the little body
again and again.
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| Crying after the Carbacholin injections |
And the needle sticks
in the same place
on the thigh
every day
for several weeks
until the experiment is stopped
because the results are "disappointing."
does not become industrious.
It does not allow itself
to be provoked.
Even if the attemps,
the already failed attempts,
are repeated
a year later
with the same
disappointing results.
The compulsion to labour
does not work
on the lazy bladder.
Neither on bladders.
But the little girl
still has
a cavity in her thigh
as a memory of the
Carbacholin injections.
It is not
a dimple.
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These poems are originally written in Swedish and translated by myself. So if the translation sounds weird - please just laugh, or cry, or just shake your head and move on to the next poem, hoping for a better translation there... Thank you for your patience, and for following my story! By the way - my lyrics sometimes sounds weird in Swedish too...
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